Bob 16 (I hate it.)

I hate not having someone care about me the way he used to.

I hate not being someone’s top priority.

I hate that I keep looking at my mobile trying to see if I have a bbm and I find nothing.

I hate feeling like I want to cry.

I hate feeling lonely.

I hate feeling like I’m not needed.

I hate feeling like this.

I hate it.

I want it all to go away.

Ps. I'm sorry if my post have been very sad but I just need to let it all out and I feel like it's the only way. So bare with me. =)

Bob 15 (Want it when you can't have it.)

People only want it, when they know someone else wants it too. Is it because they always want what they can't have? Or is that they just feel jealous when that other person wants it and they don't like that feeling?

I get it when there are ones who don't want something until it becomes unavailable and then they go crazy sucking up to get it but there's a limit to that because people aren't stupid and they notice when you do those little things.

For example all of the sudden you become all lovey dovey when you feel that person doesn't see a need for you anymore after all the coldness you've given.

Another example would be when you buy a pair of gorgeous shoes but after a month you stop using them. Your sister asks you to borrow them, you say okay but deep down you don't want to. You see her wearing them and then you have this need to get them back because you want them more now since you don't have them anymore.

If you love a person or an item and care about them just simply show that.

bob 14 (The story ain't over yet but ..)

Hello my dear lovely readers! Well at least the ones that are still commenting. I just wanted to let you guys know that the story ain't over yet but I can't seem to finish it. It's very hard getting over it all and then trying to remember it to write it as well. And honestly, he's really not worth writing about it.

However I will start writing a new story and the dialogue is all going to be real.

Ps. For those who still read and comment on my blog, its very much appreciated! <3

Gonna Find Love Again - Summer 2008 (Part 4)

The night before the big shopping spree day.

On the phone,

Fahad: Nelly, A7bch.

Me: ana b3ad a7bik

Then for a second I realized I just told him that I loved him without even thinking about it. I mean it actually came out before I thought about it.

Fahad: ishglti?

Me: maglt shay ..

Fahad: gooleha mara thanya

Me: laaaa 7abebi ast7iii

Fahad: fdaaaaaiiit ili tst7ii .. wallah a7bch ya7mara

Me: latgoool chiii, ast7iiiiiiiii

Fahad: A7eeb la3wzich

Me: uff! 9ji ink i7mar, chalb oo b3ad i95alah!!

Fahad: i95alah? Mnn wain 6el3at hathii b3ad?

Me: ma3arf

Bob 13 (I think I'm over you.)

I have moments in my day where I miss you and wish we could go back to the way we were.

But then again when I actually was close to getting back to you, I couldn’t.

I can’t trust you like the way I did before.

Plus you hurt me once you can hurt me again and again.

Unlike you, I would never hurt the person I love most.

I just wanted to tell you that you’re a liar, I realize it more and more everyday.

I might not have had the strength to end it with you but thanks to my friends, they gave me that strength to end it all.

And I thank god that I ended it when I did cause you don’t deserve me.

I actually don’t miss you at all,

I just miss having that person who gave me the attention and loved me for me.

When you told me “Nelly you’ll never find someone who’ll love you as much as I do.”

Trust me I know I’ll find someone who’ll love me much, much more than you ever did cause if you “loved me” you wouldn’t have done what you did.

At night I think of you, it’s cause I just got used to your calls then and no one can really replace that right now.

That’s what I miss the most cause I really felt like I meant something to you.

You used to call me at 5AM in the middle of my sleep and would say "I called cause we7shnii 9otich."

That’s the only thing that’s making the getting over process hard

But other than that I think I’m over you.